Saturday, May 30, 2015

Feelings....

....sometimes having feelings suck! I mean, seriously, they get hurt! They get stomped on! And the worst part is, the person who hurt them, probably doesn't even know it!

I woke up this morning and went on to Instagram....and my feelings were hurt.  I know it isn't anything big, but they were.  I felt...left out, unloved, broken, mad, jealous...just to name a few.  I honestly thought "I should just stop following her"...but I can't. 

Then 2 things dawned on me...

1.  That this is a relationship that is forever broken...I don't think it will ever be fully repaired.  There isn't a lot I can do about it either. 

2.  I need to turn this hurt, this relationship over to God.  He is the only one that can fix it, if it is meant to be fixed. 

So, I did that.  I gave it to God.  I poured my heart out on how it isn't fair, how I want it to be how it used to be.  But, I have to realize that I need to take myself out of it.  I CAN'T fix it.  I need to lay it at God's feet.  I need to stop letting my feelings get hurt.  I need to forgive her for hurting me, even if she doesn't ever ask for it.  And I need to leave it alone.....alone at my Savior's feet.  I'm praying that this week....

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